MsJoyMaeda
Hero Fantagian
Posts : 5830
Join date : 2010-12-13
Age : 23
 | Subject: How are you all doing?  Tue Aug 07, 2018 6:13 pm | |
| I don't know if people still check here often, but I have some fond memories of this place and I find myself checking here from time to time. I want to know how you all have been doing. As for myself? I... could be better. Something unfortunate happened back in April where I had to cut ties with toxic friends. This quickly got ranty and venty, haha, but I guess if you want to find out what happened I'll put it in a spoiler below. - Spoiler:
Back in 2015-2016, I discovered the Tumblr blog “dangan-ronpa-imagines’. The mods were around my age. We got along well, being within the same age group and being in the Danganronpa fandom; we were on good terms with each other and considered each other friends.
… Then October of 2017 happened.
On Discord, I was talking with one of the mods over Direct Messages. I was angry about something, and because of that, I was needlessly cruel towards them. Younger me was prone to being rude and cruel towards others whenever I was angry about something that didn’t involve them. As an adult now at 18, I want to try to stop that behavior.
After the conversation, I completely forgot about it as those messages were somehow erased from my DM history.
Over the next 6 months, in the blog’s public Discord server, something felt off. I noticed that people’s messages towards me felt less friendly and they all had a tone of annoyance. I was wondering if I did something wrong or if something happened between all of them and I wasn’t in the mix.
On April 17th, 2018, the person I was needlessly cruel to back in October sent me screenshots of private chats they were in.
It was made clear: The people that I considered friends actually despise me. They say that they actually regret talking to me, blatantly said they hate me, and complained about my vents.
This was going on for 6 months. For 6 months, I had no idea that they all hate me.
They crossed a line when they actually thought it would be ‘funny’ to send anonymous hate to my main Tumblr blog. I replied to it, not knowing beforehand it was them sending it. Upon knowing that they did so, I cried for hours on end. I was shaken and upset that they would do something like this, all over one instance where I was needlessly mean towards one of them.
I haven't talked to the people in question for about 4 months, but I'm still feelings the effects of what they did.
Yeah, I... haven't been in the greatest of states for awhile, but I'm managing. I'll get better with time. I felt like I wanted to say how I've been to you all. | |
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aimi
Veteran Fantagian
Posts : 4743
Join date : 2012-09-02
Age : 22
Location : pledis ent. building
| | Subject: Re: How are you all doing? Sun Jan 20, 2019 2:00 am | |
| aww i'm sorry; it's sounds like you've been through a lot. it's been a while since you posted this thread, so how are you doing now?
some people just don't know how to be mature. talking behind other people's back is just cruel, so i'm really sorry that it happened to you. i know that this forum is quite dead, but if you ever need to talk, feel free to message me here or through tumblr if you'd like! | |
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